self-sabotage, shadow work, and the emotional rollercoaster of trying to do it all

Episode 7:

fall off… get back on!

Timestamps & Takeaways

(00:00:00) – Intro
Takeaway: Sometimes we drop off — and that’s okay. Let’s explore why, and how to return without shame.

(00:00:40) – Why I Fell Off
Takeaway: Just because you were gaining consistency doesn’t mean a system is fully built. Early-stage routines still require full energy.

(00:02:20) – The Plane Metaphor
Takeaway: Honor the energy it takes to get something in the air. Don't assume cruising altitude too soon.

(00:03:18) – The Realization: Self-Sabotage & Fear of Peace
Takeaway: Self-sabotage isn’t always loud. Sometimes it’s subtle: blowing up flow the moment it feels safe. Peace can be triggering if chaos is your baseline.

(00:06:11) – The Work Shift Experiment
Takeaway: If ease and readiness feel unfamiliar, you may subconsciously chase the chaos your nervous system is used to. Awareness is step one.

(00:07:40) – Faux Beginners & False Starts

Takeaway: Mastery requires sustained engagement. Reinventing yourself repeatedly keeps you feeling productive, but delays actual progress.

(00:08:40) – Let’s Reframe: Not a Crash — Just a Fall
Takeaway: Plane crash energy = guilt and perfectionism. Horsefall energy = human and recoverable. The story you tell yourself shapes your return.

(00:09:40) – Final Thought: Just Put Your Foot in the Stirrup
Takeaway: Progress doesn’t require perfection. Just showing up, even clumsily, builds the momentum back.

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Practical Tips from This Episode

1. Respect the Takeoff Phase:
   Don’t add new projects while you're still finding flow with a current one. Let something hit cruising altitude first.

2. Do Shadow Work Regularly:
   Self-sabotage often hides in your subconscious. Patterns like fearing peace or craving chaos don’t go away just because you named them once.

3. Experiment Like a Coach:
   Even small tweaks — like getting ready earlier — can reveal huge behavioral insights.

4. Reframe the Fall:
   Instead of guilt-tripping over “falling off,” view it like falling off a horse: common, recoverable, even expected.

5. Start Small, But Start:
   Your comeback doesn’t need to be a grand rebrand or perfect post. Just one foot in the stirrup is enough.

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